Pride & Prejudice

We have all at least heard of the infamous Jane Austen Tale, the great dueling of human character found between Elizabeth Bennet and Mr. Darcy. Pages have been raptly turned, movies have been animatedly watched, all so we can discover what wins out - Pride or Prejudice? Love or sin?
And here lies my newest dilemma, in this story was pride one of two sins within the title or a virtue contrasting a sin? Is pride our failure or is pride our hope? In my life, does my effort for lack of pride keep me humble or does it keep me from reaching for something more? Does my pride prevent me from receiving what is right in front of me or does it push me to become a better me? I do not ask these questions of myself, of the God who is the true judge of my character, in order to justify sin. I ask these questions now of you, of Him, of me because the line between seeking and sinning blurs before my eyes. I wish to be the best version of me possibe, I wish to be the best human being I can be possible. Two things so opposite as humbleness and pride seem to be so impossibly intertwined.
In the great tale that is our lives we all wish to be Elizabeth Bennet, strong, and proud, unique, and loved by our very own Mr. Darcy. If I am being truly honest I often feel much more like a Charlotte Lucas than an Elizabeth Bennet, afraid to get near enough to pride to dream of something more, afraid of being a burden, afraid of love, afraid of hope, of destiny, afraid that if I try to be more I will see that I can only be less.
So, should I wear my pride proudly or should I humbly seek to set it aside?
I am who I am, neither Elizabeth Bennet nor Charlotte Lucas and yet somehow a bit of a strange combination of the two. I pray that my own character would be revealed to me and also that it would continue to be refined and shaped by the God I take pride in loving, and seeking, and serving all the days of my life.