Photography

Last Friday I did a photo shoot with Nathan and Kymmy, and the more I do this, take pictures, the more I believe that I can be this, a photographer.

On Friday the sun rose with promise, I hoped, for the photo shoot. I am sure it did - somewhere deep, deep, deep behind the dark gray clouds that covered the sky. Gray skies really do make for cool photos, so there really was some hope as long as it didn't rain. It was to be a sunset photo shoot, the rain could hold off that long. . . right? 9 a.m. : the clouds are being good enough to hold back the raindrops, but with each withheld drop of rain the clouds grow a little bit darker. 12 p.m. : the clouds are three shades darker than they were in the morning. 2 p.m. : maybe the 30 m.p.h. winds will push the rainclouds aside. 4 p.m. : one hour until the photo shoot - the heavens open up and raindrops begin to fall. 4:30 p.m. : God is contemplating taking back his promise never to flood the whole earth again? So, this was the moment when we had to decide whether to hope the rain stopped soon or cancel the photo shoot. Not the biggest decision in the world I know, but I am sure a teeny tiny violin was mourning for me somewhere that day. The truth is I had wanted, WANTED!, to cancel the photo shoot. It was a couple of close friends I was taking pictures of to add to my portfolio, no big deal. But the thing is, I had just spent half my day looking through my pictures and thinking they weren't good enough, I wasn't good enough. The next day was my open house and I was feeling more than a little insecure. My thoughts: 'no one is going to come and those that do won't want my stuff, and the pictures I am about to take aren't going to be any good.' And right then in the day filled with insecurities, with self discouragement, in the midst of that, the rain stopped, and some clouds parted, and the sun began to shine. The photo shoot went on, AND THE PHOTO SHOOT WENT GREAT!

I got some of the best pictures I have ever taken

And I got to see what love looks like up close

And I got to have fun with some of my closest friends

And we froze our butts off right up until sunset

And it was so worth it.

That day was proof to me that God has his hands on my biggest stresses and my smallest worries. He cares and He chooses to give me hope, Always. The Open House went great the next day, and I would like to thank everyone I know for loving me as much as you do.